ipod is on shuffle. i look out the window as the current song comes to a close, then back to my songs. there are so many songs on there that i don't even care about anymore, a sad but true statement. i tap the fast-forward button 50 taps per minute. below my fast- forward, rewind, and play button it displays how many songs i have in total on my ipod: 1,115. one thousand, one hundred fifteen.
i can't help but think to myself how funny i was growing up with my old ipod nano, i had a secret pleasure in knowing i finally had more songs on my ipod than my older sister did on hers when i hit five hundred something songs; and the same when i saw that my cool college friend i'd secretly really looked up to (well, i guess it wasn't really a secret) only had three hundred something songs on hers.
i thought five-hundred was alot... now it's almost only half of what i have on my ipod.
as much as i hate wasting time doing it, i do it anyway: scrolling the facebook news feed, seeing what is the newest most interesting thing happening in the bubble of my friends. oh look! someone is engaged... oh wow, ninety something people liked it. someone got accepted to that big fancy college!! bam-- 119 likes. as a younger facebook user i thought i was popular when eleven or twelve people liked my status that was a song lyric...
and same with friend numbers on facebook too. i look at a five hundred friend count by sophomore year and think "wow, that's alot!" and then turn to one of my freshman friends who has over one thousand friends.
the older i get, the smaller bigger things get. isn't that a compelling but exactly true concept? bigger things get smaller, numbers that were once so big shrink into miniscules compared with the number they are right NOW in the moment.
age. you thought being 10 was a big deal when you were 10 (and when you were nine.) i thought my older sister turning 18 was crazy. then, she turned 19. 19 years of full life. and that's nothing compared to other ages in this world obviously.
trends. the song "friday" by rebecca black certainly had alot of views on youtube, but then she evolved into a national icon because of how popular the song became. yout thought 250 hits were pretty good? try a bajillion (meaning i don't know the exact number of hits she had but i do know they were a TON.)
nature. you thought the thought the building was really big growing up? try mount everest. (sorry for jumping so far ahead.)
and..God. you thought the universe was big? you thought the number of stars you counted on that trip to the mountains was plentiful? you thought how the sky never stops wherever you go was a trip? you thought the idea of the sun's actual size hurt your brain alittle bit? don't even try to imagine the size of God, because it honestly is not something to be measured with human metrics or numbers.
stay in awe of things that are "big" to you while you can. because numbers change, big things shrink; or maybe it is just you growing with the numbers. or, the numbers are growing with you (and the rest of society).
is this positive? or negative? that is a whole different story obivously-- do you see the glass half empty or half full?
that is, if you can still see the glass... or has that shrunk to you too?
WOAH.
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