And this is how I choose to live, As if I'm jumping off a cliff"

It's been a while, but I think Writer's block and not alot of free time is all I have for an excuse.

for those of you who actually read this, thanks! it means alot to Haley and I, even though I've been a serious blog-hog... again, sorry haley.

reily minton and i were hanging out last night, having what we now call a 'forever younglife friday' where we basically get a bunch of our friends together and chill/do whatever. fellowship, worship, messing around-ship; and every inch of it's fueled by God-- even when the 'awesome' team pwns the opposing team in kickball(which we successfully did :D) anyway, riles (reily) and i were laying in the cool grass, staring at the stars; and it was silent. a GOOD silent. the kind of silent where the quote, "sometimes there is peace in chaos. a serene lullaby in disorder and anarchy of life. one just has to listen." (Stephen Christian) would be TOTALLY appropriate. i shattered the silence by finally telling my good friend why i love stars so much...

because, they are a perfect representation of how a true Christ followers life should be. they should be such lights in the dark, so light and pure; that other little stars are made just from there light God has put in them. we should be THAT bright; always being pure, and following God every step of our lives. and help other people reflect God's light as well... we're are the stars, and God could be considered the moon; in this sense. we try to shine as bright as the moon, and eventually we blow up and go to star-heaven... (i didn't really mention that last part to reily... hehehe :D)

a few more subjects were tossed around, and she eventually told me she likes to live life of the edge. i think we came across it because she said she's a big risk-taker or something. when i hear 'on-the-edge' i think of your typical edgy, dare-devil never-thinking-before-doing kind of person... and the label definatley did NOT fit reily! then she explained why she lives living life that way: she likes the view from the edge.

we were sitting on a hill at the time, and she said, "see? i like the edge, like i like the edge of this hill. i like sitting on the edge of the hill because of the amazing view" (at the time, the view was of a big handful of city lights... it was nice.) it made me realize: i think i like living on the edge because of that same reason, too. the view is amazing. and most of the time, we don't know how the view from the edge got there, or why it's there, or how it came crumbled together as a handful of city-lights; but it's true and it's there. and that often proves to be the one core thing a human can always depend on-- the truth.

wait a sec... "He is the way, the TRUTH, and the LIGHT."-- John 14:6

lights. stars. moon. city lights. view. truth.

this seriously JUST all came together as i typed this. it's amazing how God makes thins work together like that sometimes... TRULY amazing.

maybe God wants us all to live on the edge, then. after all, if we fall; He'd catch us.

a Relient K lyric that went well with this apiffany: "And this is how I choose to live, As if I'm jumping off a cliff, knowing that you'll save me..." (Life after Death and Taxes)

Jumping off a cliff, seeing the view from it... we'll be pushed to the edge eventually in our lives, and when we're there, we'll have the choice of running away, jumping off the cliff, or embracing the view from the cliff. me personally: i haven't decided yet, but for now... i'm just embracing the edge.

--Chrissy Z