Red Trees breaking out of our Eyes

Epiphany:

The hardest person on myself? Me.


why? Because I am aware of all the mistakes i've made in my life. In the depths of my heart, the only person who knows of every mistake and wrong that I've made or done is me.

and God. and the funny thing is, He forgave me a LONG time ago. the only person who hasn't forgiven myself is me. and I am starting to think I'm not the only one living like this.

I feel like we are all born on this Earth, with red eyes. they're red because we come out of our mother's womb, wailing, with no idea what's going on, trying to figure out how to breathe and just crying with no knowledge. whenever we cry, our eyes get red; whenever we cry, and emotion triggers something in our system that makes our eyes swell and mask themselves with thin branches of red. we are continuously looking for hope, trying to figure out how to breathe, with innocent eyes that turn red and burn because of the sights they have witnessed.


excuse me for pulling out two switchfoot songs yet again, but on the album "Hello Hurricane" by them the very last song on the album is 'Red Eyes.' It goes something like this,

What are you waiting for, the day is gone?
I said I'm waiting for dawn
What are you aiming for out here alone?
I said I'm aiming for home

Holding on...
With red eyes what are you looking for?"


When our eyes tear up, our vision gets all blurry and it's difficult to see. But it's strange, because after I cry sometimes, my eyes feel so relaxed and relieved to see the tears gone; or maybe it was the tears that actually comforted my eyes? I don't know. But I feel that way with hardships, too. Reflecting on some from the past, I look back and really think how comforting it is to be on this end of the "fight" now. I've learned many things, including one: I still have many things to learn. But if I didn't search for hope, or pray for it, there wouldn't be a chance of any survival.

But after this song on the HH album, it goes into this song called "Needle and Haystack life."

"In this Needle and Haystack life, I found miracles there in your eyes. It's not accident we're here tonight, we are once in a lifetime."

When we get Red Eyes, just know that those Red Eyes might mean the WORLD to someone else. There's a reason you're in the posistion you're in, it's not accident you're here tonight... you were made in the image of God, you're once in a lifetime. Someone is looking into your eyes, thinking: "There are miracles that are going to be born soon, if not already born." Where there's red in your eyes, you are searching for something. You'll find it soon. You'll find what you need to find soon. And who knows? Someone could be looking in your eyes, without you even being aware of it, thinking: "Wow. Look at the miracles in there."

Don't lose hope, keep searching for it; even if your eyes are masked with red.