we are daisies;

and that's all I really know.


seriously. what do I mean by this? I mean, I've come to the conclusion that I don't know anything. Really. Well, I know some things. Like I know God is love, and vice versa. and I know He is here. existant. and I know that I'm trying to live a life for Him, of Him.

but, that's it.

what are you talking about? you know what you learn in school. right?

I don't know. do I? honestly, I forget half of the stuff I learn and shove it 85%of what I learn to the back of my mind and think "I won't need this when I'm a writer." or anything in my life, for some of what I learn.

other things I don't know: everything.

I don't know how amazingly good I've got it. I don't know if what I'm doing is right. I don't know if I make the right decisions. I don't know if the way I am living my life is what really is best for others, and then me.

and then there's the stuff I REALLY don't know, like I don't know if my dad will heal. I don't know when the world will end. I don't know alot of the stuff Revelations talks about. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know zulch about politics. I don't know if I should be quiet or try to say something. I don't know.

I lack knowledge. So much. Humans, including myself, think we have advanced so much since... the beginning of time. we have. but we are so far from everything. I don't even want to THINK about knowing everything.

I guess what I'm really tired of is opinions. and the insertion of "i" at the beginning of every sentence. yep, I'm a hypocrite; and I'll tell you why. because in 8th grade, I had a friend who was fed up with people. she said out loud, "maybe if pepole just stop saying sentences with "I" or "me" in it."

okay, maybe not opinions in themsleves, but just constant "I<--- think.." and all this stuff. shouldn't we consider other people's thoughts? Connells class, seventh period. we looked over a saying of Voltaire:
"I disagree strongly with what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it." we discussed it, and I brought up the point that often in life it's the quiet ones who have the more righteous thing to say.

which is hard for me to hear considering how much I talk and how I'm not afraid to say how I feel. but let me clarify: I like talking about how I feel, or why I do something, but I like to keep my opinions personal. or, like with politics, not have an opinion at all.

which leads me right back to:

I. know. nothing.

except what I said.

and that I'm a daisy-- we all are. we're just daisies growing in a garden, God's garden. gosh, we grow some weeds sometimes, actually alot of times; but God knows we're not perfect. that's why He came to Earth--that's why it rains-- because we need His love to pour on us, without it we are nothing.

you can also look at the storm clouds like a trial. yet, the rain that pours from the clouds make us grow. it's quite inevitable.

"Daisy, why another day?
Why another sunrise
Who will take the blame
For all redemptive motion
And every rainy day?
When He gives Himself away.
let it go, Daisy let it go. Open up your fist this fallen world
it doesn't own your interest, it doesn't own your soul
Daisy
let it go."
--Switchfoot

and this, my friends, is all I really know