Unfathomable, Inevitable.

My Spring so far is made up/ based off of:

1.) God.
2.) Family.
3.) Love.
4.) CVCC.

okay past all that amazing stuff. like, the little stuff that gets imprinted in your heart that when you hear it or see it again you think "OH SPRING 2010!!"

1.) Aviators
2.) Baseball Tees (ones that AREN'T grass-stained)
3.) Baseball in general
4.) My green tank-top with leaves splattered over it (not to get confused with a grass stain. the design is actually of leaves)
5.) Arm braces. uh, I dont like that one as much.
6.) Pretty much anything off of the album "Cities" by Anberlin
7.) The Chino Hills Library on Wednesdays
8.) James 1:2-3
9.) "This is Home," "Daisy," "Don't Be There", "Playing for Keeps", "Let that Be Enough", and "on Fire", "Only Hope" and the "Hello Hurricane" CD by Switchfoot
10.) Emphasis on "On Fire" and "Daisy" by Switchfoot.
11.) The Park.
12.) Arby's, and Chic-Fil-A
13.) This Blog.
14.) The date: "May 7th"
15.) Revelations
16.) "The Orphaned Anythings" by Stephen Christian

(If you don't already know, I had a dream I was supposed to remember the date May 7th)


Life is good. God is good. Life will sometimes not be good. Sometimes it isn't. But because God is in my life is always great. More than great. More like unfathomable.


"Unfathomable" reminds me of "Inevitable" (just because of the 'ables' at the end... or is that the ONLY reason?)which is a song I LOVE by Anberlin. But I realized a couple days ago that I don't even know what the world "Inevitable" means.

Looking it up, here's the def:

1.unable to be avoided, evaded, or escaped; certain; necessary: an inevitable conclusion.
2.sure to occur, happen, or come; unalterable: The inevitable end of human life is death.


Makes sense with the song, and life. What really in the end is inevitable?


I know a couple things.

" Love's Definition: see 'undefinable' "

Is it possible to use the word "love" too much?

That's a sad thought, but honestly, if we throw it around and use it like it's no big deal then can't it possibly lose it's value??

It's like a cell-phone. If you're a 'super texter' (unlike me) and text and use your phone all the time, it'll die faster. But if you use it for emergencies and when you actually NEED to make a call, it won't die as fast, right?

I think that's with love. People throw the word around so much it begins to lose value. Can we really fathom love? Have we even discovered love yet? (Yes.) But why would we give our family the same thing we give material objects like clothes and iPods: love?

"I think it is amazing that the english language is one of the only language's that has a sole word for 'love'. I envisage it is a word that is overly battered in our society. how can you tell you dad/mom/relative that you love them, and then within the same hour say "i love your new clothing", or "don't you just love that album?" . are we not statying that this thought/feeling caleld love can be attributed to both someone we deeply care aout and also a resplendent looking innanament object?
many songs have been written about this experience called love, but in the words of christian winterset "i love you means more if first said tomorrow."
in other words don't throw the phrase "i love you" around haphazardly like it will return to you when you truly need it to mean something. i think people should wait until they ahve observed the 'behind the scenes', and made sure the other person ahs truly proven that htye are not a mere actor/actress. for if 'all the world is a stage', then love...(is) the inspiration for each and every individual performance."

--an excerpt from "The Orphaned Anythings: A memoir of a Lesser Known" by Stephen Christian

(Yes, I got the book in the mail :D)

So instead of throwing it around, if we truly love the person, say it. make it treasurable. yes, love everybody, love your neighbors; just let's value this thing we call love more; because love can do alot more to us than we can to love itself.

Empty Paper, Anyone?

You know, a while back, I found an empty journal-looking thing. I wanted to use it, but I didn't like how the cover looked.

A few months later, I found the journal and seemed to not care about what the cover looked like. I opened it, and I flipped through it, and the pages were so white, clean, and crisp. I love the smoothness of a blank sheet of paper- this journal wasn't even lined paper, it was just blank.

What could I possibly DO with the thousands of papers? My default thought is automatically: "I'm going to write a song." But now that I think about it, I could totally do THOUSANDS of things with that peice of paper. Gah, it's such a simple thought but it still gets me thinking.

And because the journal has lots and lots of blank pages in it, if I mess up on whatever I decide to do with the papers, I can just throw the paper away and start over on the next page. Hmm...

I know I may go a bit crazy with the symbolism sometimes, but I really feel like this is a good representation of something-- my life. My life is the journal. There's always blank sheets of paper, and there's thousands of things I can do with it. And if I mess up, God'll just provide a new piece of paper to write on- scribble on- whatever.

I learned something similar to this when from a past church I use to go to. We learned about how, in coloring books, you color and go wild; and if you go outside the lines or mess up, you can just flip to the next paper.

What am I gonna do with my life? How will I represent God on my paper, how will I bring glory to Him?

What the heck am I gonna write on those blank pieces of paper?!

I'll let you know when I find out.

--Chrissy Z

Happy (is a Yuppie Word) Friday!!

Hey.

So if you are a big Switchfoot fan like Haley and I, you would get the title of this post... they have a song called "Happy is a Yuppie Word." I've never really read the lyrics, but that statement, "Happy is a yuppie word" I think kinda means the word 'happy' is just kinda a crowd-pleaser word... or something to lift you up 2 inches off the ground when you're feeling as low as the ground itself. My 8th grade algebra teacher once told me... "There's a difference between 'Joy' and 'Happiness'." Happiness is more temporary, I think; like "I'm HAPPY I got an A on my Geometry test (a TRUE miracle)!" or "I found a $20 bill on the ground, I'm so HAPPY!" But 'Joy' is more of retaining this pure, good feeling inside even when hard times do come. Joy: 'I sprained my wrist, but I'm still joyful!!' Ha. ;] When I'm joyful, I feel this overwhelming calmness, love, passion, grace, faith, and thanksgiving all mixed into one amazing combo package (ew I made 'Joy' sound like a Happy Meal... HAHAHA "HAPPY" meal!!!) I mean maybe that's why they call them 'Happy' Meals anyway... those chicken nuggets and awesome toys only bring temporary pleasure. (Well, except for when they were giving out video games in happy meals... I STILL have it!! Hehe, kidding)

But it's like... people go through their whole lives looking for 'happiness.' They'll read books, spend lots of money, and do the stupidest things for temporary pleasure. I'm guilty, too. And it's like... why go to all this trouble looking for this illusion that will only last for a little while when you've already have an awesome opprotunity to have that pleasure plus more that will last forever?

Not just your average happy meal... God's meal for you. Hmm...

"Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends."--Revelation 3:20 (NLV)

I have to wonder, did Jesus literally mean sharing an actual meal, or maybe a meal more than food? Some sort of a, symbolic meal? Maybe even both?!

Well, I can definatley say I'm trying to focus on joy in my life right now. Alot of trials are coming my way, and they have been for myself and my family and some of my friends; but we all just have to find joy in our trials. Right...?

"Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy."-- James 1:2

If we could all just learn to do this, imagine!! Life would be so joyful. Trials could come, but they wouldn't even effect us!!!

And when the trials DO come, if we have faith like THIS...

" "You don't have enough faith," Jesus told them. "I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it would move. Nothing would be impossible." "--Matthew 17:20
I was reading this last night, and it hit me like the back of God's hand!! If we all had even a mustard seed of faith, we could do ANYTHING! We could face any fears, and if we have faith when we pray, things could change; people could change. I'd be less saddened from these trials, and my Dad would be running around with my children someday!!

Wow. God is good, and He's showed me so many things to be more-than-happy about. I was so sad earlier today, but writing this really lifted my spirits. My prayer tonight to God: that He would bless me with the ability to remain joyful throughout these hard times, to have faith MORE than a mustard seed in Him always, and to always remember; these trials are helping me "work out my salvation with fear and trembling."

THE PEICES ARE ALL COMING TOGETHER THROUGH THE BIBLE... IT ROCKS!!!


Happy Friday!... eh, nevermind.


JOYFUL Friday! (:

--Chrissy Z

-Sigh- Another Sick Day...

Ick, another sick day. I totally thought this could be one of those one-day things... guess not. Well, I have an extended spring break! Not the way I would've planned it, but hey, if it keeps me out of school... kidding.

While I get some time at home, I spend alot of that time on the computer (ick... it's not healthy to have my eyes glued on a big glowing screen for this long). But the good thing is, I've gotten a chance to look at some stuff. One thing I got to check out was this book called "The Orphaned Anythings: A Memoir of a Lesser Known" by Stephen Christian (lead singer of Anberlin and Anchor & Braille) :D! He has such a unique style of writing, of course it's just how the character is, but how the character is potrayed is beyond me. You really get inside this guy's head, and maybe I'm over-exaggerating, but I'm so tired of reading 3rd person books in school. They're still good books, but I like seeing the character's point of view, almost being the character. Maybe that's just me?

Anyway, my dad said I can order it, so I'm excited for that.

Other than that, I've been messing around with instruments in my house. I learned and memorized the chords of "Only Hope" by Switchfoot on the piano and have been practicing it like crazy!! I'm also messing around a bit with my sister's ukelele... but don't tell HER that!!

What I really want to learn is the guitar. But for some reason, everyone seems to want to, lately. It's almost like they want to learn guitar just because everyone else is, because it's a trend. Like recycling! People wear "Go Green" or "Recycle" all over there clothes or whatever, but then they litter (I'm guilty of this myself). It's lame. And it's not why I want to learn guitar. Then again, drums would be pretty tight to learn, to... all that trapped energy let out by gripping two sticks in your hand but letting go of yourself inside. Of course there's WAY more to it than that, but I think that's a huge part of drumming.

Instruments period are a gift from God. These crazy sounds that somehow bring pleasure within our spirits also bring pleasure to God? Music is one thing we are worthy enough to share with Him. (Singing is an instrument, too!! :D)


On another note: I was feeling really down the other night because of some family stuff, and I set my alarm to wake me up to "Daisy" by Switchfoot. As I was setting the alarm up, I thought, "This would be a good song to just play right now, look outside my window at the stars, and just be in God's presence and think." Then, "Daisy" starts playing- I didn't press play or anything. Hmm... ;)

And then, the next day I was SICK!! And the day after that, too!! :D <--- Sarcastic smile, btw.


Anyway, here are the lyrics to "Daisy":

Daisy, give yourself away/Lookup at the rain/The beautiful display/Of power and surrender/Giving us today/And she gives herself away/Rain, another rainy day/Comes up from the ocean/Give herself away/She comes down easy/On rich and debt the same/And she gives herself away/Let it go/Daisy, Let it go/Open up your fist/This fallen world/Doesn't hold your interest/It doesn't hold your soul/Daisy, let it go/Pain, give yourself a name/Call yourself contrition/Avarice of blame/Giving isn't easy/Neither is the rain/When she gives herself away/Daisy, why another day?/Why another sunrise/Who will take the blame/For all redemptive motion/And every rainy day/When he gives himself away/Let it go/Daisy, let it go/Open up your fist/This fallen world/It doesn't hold your interest/It doesn't hold your soul/Daisy, let it go

Then Jon Foreman yells let it go a bunch of times. :)

They also wrote a song called "Amy's Song". These songs that are adressed to specific names make it all more interesting, in my opinion. Imean, I know it's directed at "Amy" or "Daisy" or even "Stephen" (hehe... "Hey Stephen" by Taylor Swift XD) but somehow I relate to it, too. It's like Phillipians, Paul was specifying to the Phillipians, but we can use it's morals still everyday.

I'm starting to write songs specifying names, and they're actually some of my best yet. The bad thing is, because they say specific names, I can't show them to anybody!!

Maybe that's God telling me not to show them to anybody-- something just between me and Him. You know?

--Chrissy Z

Combining Math with Religion?!

“All human evil comes from a single cause, man's inability to sit still in a room.”

Yes, a mathematician came up with that idea... which I believe is 100% true!!!

Blaise Pascal is a very good example (or gives us good examples, anyway) of how a single human being doesn't have to be just logical or just spiritual. He could be both.

And, if he was crazy, he could even use geometry with love-- similar to what this guy did.

Let's see...


you + me = love ?


No, not that stupid.


Love x population = hope

Getting closer.


Hope x population= love


Interesting... though you can never 'measure' love's amount/weight/capacity, it's still interesting to see it broken down through mathematical terms.

More quotes by Pascal!!

“Belief is a wise wager. Granted that faith cannot be proved, what harm will come to you if you gamble on its truth and it proves false? If you gain, you gain all; if you lose, you lose nothing. Wager, then, without hesitation, that He exists"

This reminds me of two things.
One)
"Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it. What good is it for you to gain the whole world, yet forfeit your soul? - Matthew 16, 24-26"

Two) I was once told: "I'd rather believe in God and be wrong about Him then not believe in God and be wrong about Him then."


Now I'm not sure that's a good motivation to put your trust in God, but it does have a point... and so does Pascal. You can gain so much good out of following God, and if you ARE wrong about following GOd (which, you are NOT; but just in theory) what do you have to lose?

It's like trying a new ice cream flavor. If it tastes gross, then don't get it. You're not being forced to buy it. If the ice cream flavor is good, then YAY! You get a yummy scoop of deliciousness.


What I also find interesting is how in Pascal's life he abandoned Math for the study of "the greatness and misery of mankind." He is a true example of how humanity needs more than "logic" and "reasoning" and "proof". We need spirituality, depth, and something bigger than all us of to feed our hungry souls. Because if we keep feeding ourselves with shallow math and logic, what passion do we gain?

--Chrissy Z