Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Warning:

signs. yeah, i know it's a movie. but it's also something that makes you aware of a piece of information you may or may have not known. even if you had known about what the sign was trying to inform you of, it still reminds you. it still sends information to you brain about something.

not just with what you see on the street. "i already knew this was a one way street." but when you see something that brings a memory back. "i already knew this song. i already know about who it reminds me of." and it may be a pretty reminder or maybe not a pretty reminder.

but the other kind of signs are the signs that inform you of something you were not aware of or didn't know before. in Judges, it talks about how Gideon asks God for a sign for if God would save Israel by Gideon's hand. he says, (verses 37-38 of chapter 6) "'look, I will place a wool fleece on the threshing floor. If there is dew only on the fleece and all the ground is dry, then I will know you will save Israel by my hand, as you said.' And that is what happened. Gideon rose early the next day; he squeezed the fleece and wrung out the dew-- a bowful of water."

another example: my cousin John Reid used to be in the marines. he is currently trying to decide if he should become a military chaplain. he posted on his blog about a peculiar experience with signs that he had just the other day:

Afterwards I stopped by Berean to look at some books. I didn’t have any in mind but I felt like I needed to entertain my bookstore fix. While there I stumbled across a book on special display written by a military Chaplain. I passed by it a few times before pulling it off display to take a gander. I didn’t want to spend the money but figured I’d read a few pages on the couch they had. He has been in for just over twenty years but wasn’t always a Chaplain. Take a wild guess at his former job…a military police. For those of you who don’t know I was a military police. Interesting huh? I didn’t get three pages further than that without reading of two other Chaplains he worked with. One’s name was John Reed…the other, John Read. Suddenly $15 seemed very trivial. [...] Is this a sign? Is this divine intervention? I can say confidently that it is. Whether it’s a sign that Chaplaincy is in fact what I’m called for is beyond mine or anyone’s authority to tell with absolute assert.


another example close to my heart: one day, i was walking home from jr high to my house, very upset and sad. God, is there any hope ? i asked. there was a wall of green leaves right next to me. "God, if there is hope, please let a pink flower just pop up in the midst of these leaves." wallah. a pink flower arose. one of the only ones there too. and i never forgot it. now everytime i see a pink flower, i know everything will be alright.

i could go on naming examples; but i will leave you with this. all in all; pray to God for signs, signs of what He wants you to do in His will. i am discovering in much more general signs now of the direction He wants me to go in in certain areas of my life. and it is a fantastic proccess.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Rest(less)

I am the sea on a moonless night,
Calling, falling, slipping tides
I am the leaky, dripping pipes
The endless aching drops of light
I am the raindrop falling down,
Always longing for the deeper ground
I am the broken, breaking seas
Even my blood finds ways to bleed

Even the rivers ways to run
Even the rain to reach the sun
Even my thirsty streams,
Even in my dreams

I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
I�m looking for you

I am the one that you left behind,
I am the thorn stuck in your side
I am the bored and clouded eyes
Looking for the well that won�t run dry

Running hard for the other side
The world that I�ve always been denied
Running hard for the infinite
With the tears of the saints and hypocrites

Oh blood of black and white and gray
Death and life and night and day
One by one by one
We let our rivers run

I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
I�m looking for you

Cause I can�t feel you breathing,
I can�t feel you reaching
Pushing through the ceiling
Making for the feeling
More than just a feeling

Pushing through the ceiling
Until the final healing
Looking for you

Until the sea of glass we meet
At last completed and complete
The tide of tear and pain subside
Laughter drinks them dry

I�ll be waiting
Anticipating
All that I aim for
What I was made for
With every heartbeat
All of my blood bleeds
Running inside me
Looking for you
Looking for you

I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
I�m looking for you


---Switchfoot


Restless: Switchfoot


This is how I feel.